There's a laziness about this break, one that I can't decide if I like or not. It's already mid-week, how disgusting because I'd really like time to pass so much more slowly than it's going.

I really have the most glorious weekends. I live for them because then I feel whole again. Sounds rather weird ain't it but it's true. It's where I leave my Law nonsense behind and interact with people in the social sense. This isn't to say that I haven't made friends in Law School because I have.

I had cell on Saturday, then we rushed off to Icekimo for good food. Lotsa teasing between Chua Eugenia and I. Clara was there, though working. The teasing was due to the usual, Eugenia and her food.

Sunday had Camp Com meeting. I feel like there's so much that I'll have to do once Registration starts and I really hope I can schedule my time for it. I don't want to do a bad job and give excuses like "I have to study"
I went home, slept for 3 hours, then went to the airport to send Sonya off. I said I would cry because I knew I would. And I did. And while her friends were all around hugging her, we hung back because... I know for me it was bacause I was furiously blinking back tears but in the end felt that we couldn't let her go without a hug. And when she finally walked out of sight, boom, it was like this part of me was gone. (Sounds so drama but yeah) And it still hasn't hit me yet that she's left Singapore.

I sent JT off in the week prior to this. It was different because I was the only one who was sending him off. At least, the stupid boy told me to come earlier so that we could say goodbye. Which explained why at first I couldn't find his flight and row because he told me a wrong time. It was different because JT flies back often during his breaks and I was merely sending him off to another sem. Actually, considering that Sonya is probably going to do the same thing, it shouldn't be that different, but well, JT's been doing it for 2 years so I guess we've all gotten used to it. Haha.

Monday was spent lazing around, trying to read a bit of Contract but deciding that textbooks suck and moaning around that Singapore voted Hady as Singapore Idol. POOR JONATHON LEONG I VOTED FOR YOU. Somehow I wasn't that sad. I told Esta that meant he would be more free to date me and she said I was funny. The rest of the night was TV night, Scrubs had Clay Aiken as a guest star.

Tuesday was out with Benita, having sushi and bad influences of encouraging people to buy things. I was tempted to buy Clay Aiken's newest album, YES IT'S OUT. But instead got steered to Kino where I purchased Frank Lampard's Autobiography for a grand sum of 48. Actually, it was 28 since I had 20 bucks of vouchers. Glorious 440 odd pages. I've gotten to about half, and it's led me to say that I will never say bad things about the players in my team, I will always support them, no matter how well or badly they're playing at the mo. When they're down, you give them encouragement. Because Frank had it bad playing for West Ham, the fans accused the manager of nepotism and booed him everytime he played. Can you imagine the courage he must have had to make it through about 3 years?

Anyway, happiness because Fulham 0-2 Chelsea and we're now top of the table. For the moment.

Out with Ming and Amanda tomorrow for dinner.

It always happens. I have a good week or good days and then bad things start to happen. Life is like that, meant to make sure you don't get too comfy in your skin. So I really knew I ought to be watching because I had 2 great weeks. Boom!

Got back my Closed Memo. Still looking through and muddling my way through because I have no idea what I'm arguing. How the hell does one decide on the issue? It's really not as clear cut as I thought it was. My tutor's comments was that my Closed Memo I's discussion was irrelevant.

I am sick. Down with 'flu. Which makes me even more cranky that I'm used to. I feel my self-confidence just plummenting and I can barely even start to care about law school and the workload when I'm feeling so shitty.

I haven't touched my piano in a week. Sick and all that you know. So I suppose I can cancel my Saturday lesson but I don't really want to because that means I'd have to make it up. Trying to piah my 4 bars of Chopin which is really tough.

I still feel sick. I'm sick at the thought of my friends leaving me in droves. Or rather just Sonya. I miss the people in POP so badly. I get a lot of comfort there and the strength to push on really comes from knowing God and them. The weekend is almost upon us, my grammer sucks in Closed Memo, I have a torts tutorial to complete, so THANK GOD FRIDAY IS ALMOST UPON US. I really really can't take this. This being sick thing is really killing me.

My mum says that when I'm sad I get sick. I don't want to be sad, I want to be happy! I want to have hugs! I don't want to cry and tear and break down so often! The holidays will see me happily nuaing. YES YES.

Chelsea 1-0 Liverpool

It would have been more, I know it would have, if Chelsea hadn't had to hang on to their lead with 10 men! How could that referee, Mark Riley, send Ballack off with a straight RED? He stomped on Sissoko but it wasn't on purpose! He didn't deserve a RED! Sissoko actually should have been sent off in the first half la!

YOU MEAN POKE. NOW BALLACK IS OUT FOR THE NEXT 3 MATCHES!

I was hardly daring to breathe. My sister was telling me to calm down in the dying moments but she was also very scared. Sheva didn't really have a good game. I miss JoeCole and ArjenRobben! But 3 points is 3 points and Chelsea is very pro. Happy!

Had a good talk with Jude (I miss her, she drew a picture of her house on MSN la!) and Clara (No moneh no honeh) on MSN, and Vernon who's supporting ManU and Nathanael (henceforth known as Nat but not to be confused with Nat Tan) who's supporting Arsenal.

I shall blog about the CCM-POP BBQ. It was fun! We had lots of good food, had fun with the games, and I really got to talk and know the people from other cells better so it was really fun. Today's sermon was really good because I felt it was speaking to me and this week just seemed like such a blessed one (beware Monday cos it's Closed Memo day but I'll be meeting Clara for ice cream which will cheer me up much) But yes, on the whole, I really felt so at peace.

Anyway, my sister was saying how the "Ong and Leong" show on 98.7, Ong is a Pool supporter and Leong is a Chelsea supporter and cos Chelsea won, Ong is supposed to "Moo"whenever Leong tells him to. Omigod. Funny sia. I won't be home in time to catch that! Ice-creaming with Clara.

LA LA LA LA LA. HAPPINESS. (until tmr- this will be a repeat post in my lj)

Aren't dreams supposed to be manifestations of your sub-conscious? If it truly is, then why can't I let things go? If they're meant to be the opposite of reality, then yes, it's way too true.

I almost wish I could hate you but I know I never will. Heaven by your side.

I'm able to blog so much (or more frequently) these few days because I have officially declared this week my slacking week. Anyway, my weekend effectively starts on Thursday night because Friday only have ONE torts lecture and I can go play. Next week as I've mentioned, is going to be killer.

I have to find out what I got for my Closed Memo. I'm damn scared.

I have to do my Closed Memo II. Bye bye Wed, Thurs, Fri.

I have to make sure the Church Camp proposal for Admin is done.

Oh gosh. I really am scared of that Closed Memo. Stupid rule proof and application.

Law school is more enjoyable these few days. Maybe it's because I'm haha, slacking, or the friends and people around me or just generally taking it easy. It feels wrong to be slacking so much but at least it's given me time to be with my family, my friends and most importantly, God. Such are my priorities in life that I realised my blog reflect such.

So if you're really looking for very interesting stuff or my opinions on important things, I'm sorry you're in the wrong place.

Singapore saved me from much heartbreak by letting Jonathon Leong get into the finals with Hady. And then on Friday night I checked my NUS email and realised that he was at NUS Cultural Center at 5pm and I COULD HAVE GONE IF ONLY I HADN'T HAD TO GO DO MY DBS BANK ACCOUNT OR CUT MY HAIR. Oh no, I sound like a fanatical supporter like I know a certain Yishu is about Paul Twohill. But you gotta admit JL has style!

Had a great talk on MSN with lots and lots of people. I was waiting for Clara to come online but she didn't. So I went offline and watched the EPL Preview. WHICH TO LET YOU KNOW, SUNDAY IS BIG FOUR SUNDAY.

Chelsea v. Liverpool

Manchester United v. Arsenal

(OMIGOD. I'M DOING THE LAW THING. See previously I write Chelsea vs Liverpool, now I'm doing the law v. thing!!! Like a case! Torts has screwed my mind, in any case, if Chelsea wins and Pool tries to appeal, I shall dismiss the case. And obviously this is really really screwing with my mind)

Chelsea better do some trashing here!

Off to Piano later and then to a combined CCM-POP BBQ. Happiness!

I know I should be putting up pictures of like the SN Alumni Dinner and what not but I'm soooo lazy to upload the pictures into the computer. Mhhmm. I promise that the latest I'll do it is during the Mid-Sem break. Joy-ness!

This happiness will not last I assure you. LAWR is enough to make one sick. There will be more than my fair share come next week. So enjoy this while you can.

Today has been a pretty good day so far...

I survived Torts and Contract!!! (If I can get through tomorrow safe, it would be great- Thursdays are generally not very good days and there's LAWR!)

So in the morning I work up early to do my Contract tutorial and read cases, and ended up happy happy over the Chelsea-Werder Bremen Champions League score- the match took place in the morning but stupid Channel 5 wasn't showing the game so I had to count on Amanda to tell me the score. (She was watching PSV-Liverpool)

2-0! Then there was the question over why Ballack was taking the penalty and not Lamps.

“I spoke to Michael before the game and we decided he would take one if we got one on the night,” Lampard told Smooth FM 102.2, Chelsea’s official radio partner, following the game.

“I knew I would be asked questions after the game but the most important things is the team scores the penalty for the benefit of the team rather than who takes it. In future who knows who will take them but it is just important to score.
-chelseafc.com

OK, then... after school I went out with a very good friend for dinner and drinks. Great food, even better company. And then back home to watched the taped Singapore Idol. I love Jonanthon Leong and I will vote for him again this week. (My dad was so blown away he wanted to vote 10 times) Please don't make me sad tomorrow by letting him leave!

Some church camp proposal preparation, football news and blog hopping.

What a difference from the first week in school where I was barely coping. I'm starting to slack that's true but at least I ain't breaking down that often no more! Ha.

Praise God.

I look forward to the weekend (but not to the advent of next week where the dreaded Closed Memo reappears)

I had a wonderful weekend. Absolutely marvellous. Marred only by Torts. So to combat that I have decided that I shall talk about my wonderful weekend only. No law today! (Even though I am lost in Contract and Breach of Duty)

Went out with my OG after lecture on Friday for NYDC, a spot of shopping and The Devil Wears Prada. I tell you watching the movie made me remember my whole CK sale job and how that week transformed my materialistic side into something a whole lot more. I wanted to reach out my hands and grab the clothes that Andrea was wearing and go "MINE!"

Then... WESTLIFE. Some people may think it's childish and so passe, but the whole co-ordinated outfits and moves were exactly what I wanted. It was corny but oh man, I felt so young again! I had a really great time singing along with the songs. (Oh and they did "Addicted to Love" which was what Jonathon Leong sang on Idol! VOTE FOR HIM) I'm still gushing and it's already been 2 days. "You raise me up" was great. Just great. I'll go for their next tour if they come to Singapore again!!!

Saturday was a day out with piano and Sonya/YY. Have a great meal and then went to YY's place to play with her dog. So cute when not barking at me. I miss them loads

My rocks are back from YMLC. I missed Clara.

Nice quiet gentle? Oh love.

Anyway I hope next week's going to treat me kindly.

Chelsea 2-1 Charlton. YAY FOR ALL 3 POINTS.

Even if I had the time, would I want to spend it on my law readings? I find myself increasingly distressed at the fact that everyone is reading their textbooks and casebooks and I'm going... okay I'm reading them (a bit) and not really understanding or retaining information, so technically would there really be much use in doing so?

It's often a question of studying smart rather than studying alot.
Quality over quantity.

Also I realised that partly why I might be writing all that out is to comfort myself, mainly because I live for the nights at 10 where I have to stop work and can just forget everything and watch TV. (I can't do work after 10) But I also think it's very true.

Chelsea's Champions League is starting soon. In a week! Hooray! Football may be heartbreaking if all 3 points aren't taken but it's a very nice distraction away from things that start with an L.

Church camp preparations- during the first meeting where the expectations and vision was laid out, it was particularly significant for me because I've been struggling with the issue of "constantly mugging" v. "having a life". We all know that the constantly mugging thing will never ever happen. I keep on talking about a balance but really, what balance is there when I'm merely doing the required, (struggling to), struggling to meet up with people and only feeling at peace when I talk to the Lord or am at church?

I cry too often these days.
But now it isn't just in instances when I'm sad.
It's when I feel comforted by the promises of the Lord. Too in awe of His greatness and love.
I know that without Him in my life, I probably won't be able to make it through the days.

Thank You Clara, Eugenia, Esta, Sonya, YY, Benita, Gladys.
I may not see you everyday but I know you're looking out for me.

Thank You for the prayers.

I promise you, faithful readers of my blog, that soon you'll see a post that doesn't mention much of the L word, but one that's ONLY CHELSEA HAHAHAHA. Insanity is quite a comfort sometimes.

Love you! Kissy kissy

I think my weeks are characterized by peaks and valleys. If I were to follow that, it would mean that I should be having a terrible week this week. Yes I am.

I have a closed memo due. Because I have no weekends, being devoted to church and piano and cell dinners/lunches, I realised most assignments have to done by Friday night. Now the issue here is that I've finished it or sort of because I really can't be bothered to look through and analyze my writing and critique it because I'm so so tired of it. Besides, you often think your own work is logical. Then I realised that I might have decided on the wrong issue and my closed memo is therefore wrong because I'm debating on the wrong thing! Because the instructions weren't clear! So hysterical tears.

" In view of the prison's acknowledgement that Ming Xue should have been characterized as being in a vulnerable category at risk of suicide, assume in your Memorandum that this has been established and focus on the standard of care owed by prison officials to the prisoner"

So I chose to focus on the standard of care of a suicide risk. But some people are doing "Did the prison take reasonable care in determining if she was indeed a suicide risk" and therefore "standard of care" 2 issues versus my 1 issue. It was suspicious because my facts given had huge chunks of how the prison determines suicide risk so you wonder...

Crap I can't be bothered no longer. It's 10 percent of my final grade and seeing how I'm moving along in this Legal Analysis Writing and Research or my LAWR, I shall be getting Cs and Ds.

I've just had a very bad week. And now I can't even access my tutor's workbin to hand it up.

My second week was great because I felt that perhaps things were falling into place but in the third week I realised that Contract law is confusing and people are debating about in depth thinking and issues when I'm struggling to get the basics. I shall fall utterly behind in the rat race. Okay now my mind is back to the thinking if my issue that I addressed is the correct one.

I just keep praying to the Lord to bring me through it, to help me enjoy law. I was so happy when I got in, but the reality is often that now you have to due with smart smart hardworking people when in the first place you're not really that smart or that hardworking. Especially in comparison to those people.

-- Whining aside

Most people I know are having like problems, adjusting to University Life.
School has been on for 3 weeks and still I can't tell if I'm happy there or not.
I know I definitely will be when everything falls nicely to place.
Just... when is that going to be?

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Since I haven't blogged for a week, I shall attempt to do so now with mundane stuff.

I am prophetic. YOU SEE I CAN PREDICT WHAT HAPPENS IN THE CHAMPIONS LEAGUE. Okay or not really. I said didn't I, that happy days have their share of bad times? The next day on my last post, I found out that wahahaha, just as I had predicted, Chelsea is in the group stages with Barcelona. Good points and bad points.

To back up my prediction powers, for the opening game against Manchester City, after Terry had scored, I said confidently "The next person to score is Lamps" And it happened!

Want further proof? I correctly predicted the match score and who would score the first goal in the Blackburn match (2-0 and Lamps)

Unfortunately I'm not too sure about the Chelsea-Charlton match next week so don't go betting on what I say.

Gallas has left Chelsea for Arsenal.
Ashley Cole has left Arsenal for Chelsea. Left-back gotten finally.

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Singapore Idol is down to the Top 4. HOORAY JONATHON LEONG IS ONE OF THEM. Singapore voted out Joakim this week. He was a cute boy but not that great a singer. Still, you gotta give him some credit for sticking through all the criticisms. You know who I'm rooting for.

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I cannot wait to see my cell group members again. You guys rock my world. A blessing truly, is what Saturdays are.